losing faith

and the trouble is

Will you ever understand what I'm going through?
Will anyone, for that matter?

Will you love me enough?
Enough to see beyond the complications?

With a dying glimpse of hope
I'm losing faith in all possible resorts
I'm just tired of fighting all these
I'm gonna give up

For no one, will ever understand
What I'm going through

What Ifs

are just dangerous path to stroll

I'd say Take a stroll anyway!

be reckless! But don't be headless!

Embrace It

One sunny day

it was one sunny day

a day I've been waiting for

just to see you again

just to see how u'd act

just to see how u'd be like

just to smile to myself silly

smile to myself silly I am

Sitting staring at the clock, I am

just waiting for this one phone call

yes I'm in love

I'm in love with this whole indulgence

Never felt this innocent before

Never felt this uncertain before

Never felt this fear in me before

Embrace it

I'd say 

Embrace this

like I always have told you

Never seen this side of me before

Familiar feeling

This strange and good feeling

Embrace it

I tell you

Really 'cause this is just one feeling

you should never fear to explore

It's all just a simple equation

This is a simple equation

You feel it

but you don't feel enough?

You don't say

coz you are too afraid?

You run away

coz you just don't care?

You don't write

coz you are not willing to reveal?

You ignore

coz you don't give a fuck?

yes, oh yes

it's that simple

It's that complicated

It's just nothing

but an equation

Dawn of Freedom

I wanna scream
scream
scream my lungs out

For there's no joy
more than ever
than to just feel free to do anything
anything you want
anything at all, really...

Don't let yourself down
Don't judge yourself
just let yourself go

so go, go, go
Go scream your heart out!
Cry your soul out!

Come come come everybody!
Join me

Let's go for a ride
out to nowhere
to scream our lungs out!

Words

It's just amazing how words can be manipulated.

If a word alone can be interpreted/applied and/or capable of being interpreted/applied to one distinctive meaning, would it make our lives easier?

Words can mean different things, depending on the context in which they were used.

Words alone can be misconstrued by different persons, depending on their state of mind.

Words expressed are capable of being deceptive at times, especially when you choose to be misled by it.

Weather changes Moods

Does your mood swing when the weather changes?

Well it does, to me. At least today, it succeeded.

With the pile of books in front of me, with the rain pouring right outside this window,
coupled with the not so forgiving cold wind blow outside. It managed to get to me, somehow. Or it could be Jeff Buckley's haunting voice which had managed to make me feel a lil offbeat.

Oh yes, it'll be nice to just chill by the fireplace at this moment, with a glass of wine and also probably your best pal, to rant about nothing or everything. To have your warm furry pet cuddling by you. Mmmmm... It's a nice feeling.

Oh yes, weather changes moods, only when you let yourself to.

A pointless lament

I've learnt that one can never get used to sitting for exams. No matter how well trained, how prepared you are! Sitting in a quiet exam hall, writing legal arguments that possibly make less and less sense as, the clock ticks away. Seriously. Why do we (law students) subject ourselves to such mental and physical torture??

Three down, one more to go!

I hope the last one will be better.

it takes two

Hell yes!
but when you feel like you are doing it alone
it probably is true

so wake up
and walk away

it might be healthier that way

When in Doubt

I hate it when there's too many "what-ifs" in my life. I guess it's something most of us despise.

Not knowing what the future lies is like walking in the dark, not able to find a way out of a dark, dark room.

To prepare yourself for a what-if situation, you could perhaps try a few methods. One of which is a method I learnt from a basic programming class. The if-then-else method. It usually works out to be a more "stable" approach in life. But hey, life is full of uncertainties. This could only give you some sort of a comfort, guidance or should I say, false hope?

I'm going through a series of unknowns at the moment. I thought I had a rough time last year. I thought I had the worst year in in 97. But hey, this year is just as rocky! I'll get through it, I know! ;)

Now... back to my boring law notes.

1:08

It's one of those nights again
Can't sleep, can't think, can't reason it out
If only things were easier

It's one of those moments again
Can't say, can't shout, can't pin point it out
If only things were clearer

It's one of those feelings again
Can't smile, can't cry, just can't get it out
Maybe it'll be over

Soon we'll see
Just let yourself be
As it always have been
You will be free